My Life as a Dog (Mitt liv som hund) (1985)

 

Mit liv som hund

Before director Lasse Hallström became an accomplished, if not famous, Hollywood director, he worked in Sweden, primarily doing videos for ABBA, but in 1985 he directed “My Life as a Dog” (“Mitt liv som hund), which became an international hit. “My Life as a Dog” is a special entry on the Danish “1001” list.

In the late fifties, Ingemar (Anton Glanzelius) is a boy of around 10 years with a single mother (the father is absent) and an older brother. The mother (Anki Lidén) is very ill and mostly in bed and Ingemar’s life revolves around attention to his sick mother and his beloved dog. When her illness takes a turn for the worse, Ingemar is sent to his uncle and aunt (Tomas von Brömssen as Gunnar and Kicki Rundgren as Ulla) in a small town in Småland. Ingemar gets to know a lot of the locals there, like the tomboy Saga (Melinda Kinnaman), the village beauty Berit (Ing-Marie Carlsson) and bed-ridden old Mr. Arvidsson (Didrik Gustafsson) to whom he read aloud advertisements for women’s underwear.

Eventually, Ingemar returns to his mother, but she soon dies and Ingemar is sent back to his uncle and aunt. He learns his dog has also died and the combined loss threatens to send him over the edge.

Throughout the movie, Ingemar does and says things that are mildly disturbing. Often unintentionally, it drives his mother nuts, and he gets a reputation for being strange. In the little town in Småland, he starts on a blank sheet where everybody is a bit odd. This makes him open up and make friends. When he becomes the object of a triangle drama with Saga and another girl he reverts to his strangeness and acts like a dog, but even that is somehow dealt with and leads to a catharsis moment where he finally gets to face and process his grief.

It seems to me that the title refers to how Ingemar sees his life as that of a dog. Both in the sense that he has to accept that focus is on somebody else, and he has to do something wild to get some attention and that the life as a dog is a lot simpler. As a dog there is no responsibility, no decisions and no expectations. This is both something he experiences and aspires to when things are difficult. Facing life and grief requires maturity and courage and this is his coming of age.

There is a sweet sub-plot around Saga who is unhappy being a girl. She likes boxing and football and is concerned that eventually her growing into a woman will prevent her from doing these things. For her there is also a coming-of-age process where she must accept who she is and is becoming and admit to herself her feelings. When we see her in the end in a dress, soiled with mud, it indicates how she has embraced both aspects of herself.

As most Swedish movies “My Life as a Dog” moves along in a slower pace than we are used to and at the same time, Ingemar’s strangeness is like an accident or disaster waiting to happen. This combines to give the movie a feeling of impending doom in slow motion, which I suppose serve well as an analogue to Ingemar’s feelings, but also makes the movie a bit difficult to watch.

In the end we learn that Ingemar is convinced that he is the one to blame, that he caused his mother’s death and implicitly that he is somehow in control of bad things that happen. Finding out that things happen that you cannot control and that you, as a child, are not guilty of, is part of his growing up.

Frankly, while I watched “My Life as a Dog” I did not like it much. The feeling of impending doom made it difficult. Afterwards, however, I am a lot more positive about it when I think of it. There is something in the message that is really comforting and seeing all these odd characters getting along is heartwarming. Therefore, a modest recommendation from me.